the new year + clear spaces

What a beautiful thing the winter sun is!

The new year has started and it really feels like it's gonna be a good one.
I went through my resolutions from last year and must say that I made quite good steps in realizing them without putting too much pressure on me. The last months were all about letting go and I can not put in words how good it feels to finally be able to let go so much better than all the last 34 years. For the people who don't know me that well, I was always the person who was afraid to forget and filled tons of pages with my thoughts about everything that happened and secretly cried for lost loves even though I was already in a new relationship. I saved all pictures and memories and it felt like I even had to hold on to very painful things, because this seemed a lot saver than having nothing to hold on at all. And the memories and all the stuff have grown bigger and bigger until I was not really able to carry it anymore longer and the longing for feeling just peacefully and lightly was overwhelming me. I always envied people who expressed their anger and hatred and just went on with their life blaming others and saving their heart while I felt condemned to still love everyone I ever loved and feeling the pain of not being able to be part of their lives anymore like your own children that you have to let go to let them live their own life at some point.
I always loved clear spaces that allow me to breathe and think clearly. And one would not imagine how much the outside is connected to the inside of oneself. I have started that journey, the journey of letting go and reducing to the things I really enjoy and need and I don't know where it will lead me,  but it feels good to leave old paths, let go the fear of the unknown and don't order my inner voice to be quiet anymore. Because what else did it bring me but pain?
As a creative person that works from home, it is obvious that you still need stuff to create, so my work room won't be empty. But the rest of the house I will continue to transform. It is not my aim to have only 100 possessions or anything like that, but to simply have less and enjoy it more. To use it actually. In my childhood I collected many things that I actually did not dare to use, because I wanted to save the fun. I saved it for so long until the stuff was unusable anymore.
Minimalism is not only about things, it is equally applicable to all areas in life.

Unusual open words from me. Maybe you recognize yourself a bit in it. If so, let me know what you are thinking! Have a lovely weekend!


jabbott said...

Yes I know what you mean Its nice when you are your true self x

cococita said...

What fascinates me a lot is that minimalism is so much in contrast with the merely baroque history of your country. I always associate Austrian interiors with styles like baroque and Biedermeier, the way I know it from the many travels in my childhood, and your home feels so unique to me as it contradicts those childhood memories. I am in the same process and it feels good: still many steps to set yet every single one brings me closer to my goal ...

Sandra Dunn said...

I love the energy of your home - and I only get that from pictures. The light, cleanness, freshness. The open jars picture is fantastic - Claudia, it's like you will capture exactly what you desire! In November, I started a cleaning process of the house as well - it's still a work in progress. I like things - lol. I read and followed Marie Kondo's book : The Magic Art of Tidying. It was a wonderful guide. I'm so glad you posted this journey - many are tossing (things) and minimalizing and it feels good.

wide-eyed-tree said...

@Sandra: Ha! I read Marie Kondo's Book in 2014 and it also spoke to me, I felt so very similar to her since the age of 12. It was like I could have written what she wrote about her childhood when all this clearing out and organizing started! It is a lovely book. And yes, I also love things! But I kept things that did not fully make me happy far too long and also I need so much free space to feel comfortable. Do you know Bea Johnsons Book "Zero Waste" or the book "Sweeping Changes: -Discovering the Joy of Zen in Everyday Tasks" of Gary Thorp? (In German it has the beautiful title: Die Kunst den Mond abzustauben) Also 2 wonderful books. Bea Johnson has also several videos on youtube, but I don't think that I'm gonna go that extreme. But having my own veggies is actually a very good way to have no waste. Glad you are also into simplifying and letting go. :)

Sandra Dunn said...

Wow! I will look into the other books you mentioned and the videos as well! Thank you. Such a good way to live. :)

Anonymous said...

Wow! Ich kann totaaaal nachvollziehen, was du meinst und wie es dir geht, dass du dich von alten und liebgewonnenen Dingen und Menschen nicht trennen kannst. Mir geht es ganz genauso. Vor allem der Aspekt bei den Menschen nicht mehr an deren Leben teilhaben zu können, schmerzt mich auch immer wieder sehr.
Bald werde ich wieder umziehen und unausgepackte Kisten mit lauter Zeug werden wieder mit mir umziehen und irgendjemand wird sie tragen müssen. Aber ich kann und will all das darin nicht los lassen.
In anderen Bereichen klappt das aber mittlerweile sehr gut und darauf bin ich dann stolz. Und bei dir scheint das ja auch immer besser zu klappen. :)